Hurt

I'm so hurt. Times like these, I wish I had a switch to turn off my feelings. Haven't felt this way in such a long time. My mind's in a complete mess, and I can't even find the right words to express the way I feel. What happened to our promises? What do they even mean to you? Why do the people I love, the ones that I've so much hope for, the ones I choose to trust wholeheartedly, always have to end up hurting me? I wish I could shut that side of me out, I wish I could stop caring for everyone. BUT I CAN'T. I feel bad even when I get mad at people. Can someone tell me what I'm supposed to do? I feel confused, I feel broken, but I don't wanna be the one walking out. I don't wanna be given such a responsibility. I don't wanna be the one regretting. I don't wanna live in such misery knowing I was the one who  called the last shot. 

How does one look at someone they love and tell themselves it's time to walk away?

Update on my life

Hey guys!!! Today has gotta be my happiest day of 2014 because I've finally completed my new blog skin and set up my very own domain after nearly 2 months! Hip hip hooray! Well, this explains why I haven't really been updating regularly as I wanted to focus on shifting my page away from blogger to my own domain, as well to work on my design. Now that I've finally stopped using Blogger, I just wanna rant about how much I hated it. It has given me so many problems with my posts etc over the last few years. I've lost several blog posts previously because of its poorly designed functions as well. Not to mention, I spent USD239 on this domain because of some asshole person X who bought my domain just so that he could sell it to me at such a ridiculous price. Call me dumb, but I thought it was something worth investing in, besides, I couldn't wait till the day person X wakes up and decides to stop being an asshole. Just wanna mention that these aren't my own assumptions, someone who knew person X kindly informed me about it. Since I'm in an extremely good mood, I'm just gonna chuck this aside.  

That being said, I really hope you guys like it!

Please do take some time to browse through my page as I put in quite a lot of effort for every section. As you can see, under the "Contact" tab, I've actually set up my own P.O box where you guys could mail me things; letters, gifts etc. Just don't send me death threats or an annabelle doll. Hahahaha. Do try to leave your name so that I could tag you if I were to share them on my social platforms, I'll check them once in awhile :)

Anyway, there are still more stuff coming your way, especially MY NEW MERCHANDISE!!! Some of you might be aware that I used to own a webstore when I was younger, selling pre-loved items and it was doing really well, just that I got really lazy eventually :p And I've always wanted to have my own store again, but instead of selling things that you can easily find else where, I thought why not come up with my own merch? So I'll be collaborating with my designer and coming up with Tshirts, Tanks and maybe more stuff along the way. Of course, the designs wouldn't be like an image of my huge ass face printed on the items... Unless you want it? ;) Lol kidding. I'm still in the midst of sorting everything and if you've anything you'd like me to sell, do leave a comment and I'll see if I could work something out.

I'd be pretty busy for the next couple of weeks as my exams are round the corner and there are a number of really exciting things lined up for my YouTube Channel in the next two months.

I'll still try my best to update this space as much as I could, but do bear with me! Meanwhile, feel free to navigate and explore my new design. Tell me how you feel about it, and share it if you like it! ;)

P/s Just wanna thank you guys for all the constant support; I've finally reached the 100k milestone on Twitter, and I'm just 5 thousand more subscribers away on YouTube. I love you so much! xoxo

Cat Inspired Makeup and Hairdo for Halloween.

Hey darlings! Honestly speaking, I've never experienced dressing up for Halloween in my entire life and I guess this year isn't an exception, but in spirit of occasion, I decided to share with you guys my all time favourite cat-inspired makeup and hairdo - Suitable for both, short and long hair.

First, wash and condition your hair - Not only is it important to keep you hair fresh and tamed, but you'd want your tresses to smell good! Unless... you don't? :p I've been using the Sunsilk Co-creations (Nourishing soft) shampoo and conditioner for the longest time.

Before you begin, all you'd need are two fuzzy wires (you can choose any colour or something close to your hair colour), two hair ties (optional) and 4 bobby pins. For the fuzzy wires, I got a packet of 15 (15mm in thickness and 30 cm in length) from Art Friend for around $5.00

Trim it to your desired length and make sure it's neither too long nor too short.

Next up, blow-dry your hair, brush through thoroughly to prevent any knots. Start by sectioning your hair into two! At this point, you can choose to apply some hairspray to hold your hair in, but I'm skipping that step in this case. As my fringe is relatively long, I'm using the front part of my hair to create this look. If you've short bangs, an alternative would be to grab your hair from the middle portion instead.

Once you're satisfied with the parting, place the wire on that portion of hair and fasten it with a bobby pin. You can use more if you wish.

Part one side of the two sections into 3 and start braiding! If you've no idea how to braid watch how to do so (here)

You can first secure it with a hair tie or just pin it down right away like I did. The lazy people's method hahaha. Lastly, just bend it accordingly and make sure that the ends are as pointy as possible! Repeat the same for the other side. :D

Here are just some simple steps to the makeup!

1. Apply your usual make up (foundation, powder, brows)
2. Put on some black/brown eyeshadow on the outer corners of your eyelids, white on the inner-corners and underline your bottom lash-line with purple eyeshadow.
3. Draw on your eyeliner as per-normal first, followed by your crease, extending the outer-end upwards to create an exaggerated wing and the inner-end down to the inner-corner of your eye.
4. Draw on your cat whiskers!
5. Create an inverted triangle on the tip of your nose, first by outlining it, then shading the inner portion.
6. Apply red lipstick/liptint.
7. Outline the shape of your lips with black eyeliner.
8. Don't forget your coloured contact lenses if you want your eyes to stand out!

The liquid eyeliner I'm using here is from 1028 Magic - Really long lasting and it's waterproof with sharp and soft tips. Get something similar to this with a fine tip so that it makes it a lot easier to draw the lines.

Eyeshadow - Naked palette 1 and 3. Virgin, Blackout and Darkside.

Liptint - Benefit cosmetics.

Contacts lens - "Magic Brown" from Maxi Eyes.

TADA! You're done! :)

Hope it's not too complicated. Happy Halloween in advance :) Comment in the comments section and tell me what hairstyle and makeup you'd be doing for this Halloween!