Tried.Tired.

I'm so burnt out, I can't breathe, I feel suffocated.

I don't mean to make this page a place where people read, and feel bad or worse than they already are, but sometimes it's so hard to find someone to talk to. In fact, the challenge is finding someone who would be able to understand you.

Then again, I hate bothering people with my problems. So I guess here's where I feel most comfortable for pouring my tale of woe.

I'm not sure if anyone could empathise with me on this, but I feel that as I grow older, there are so many more things that I've to take responsibility of, and there's no time in the world to let your emotions come in the way.

Personal feelings have to be one of the last few things I should take into consideration in any case. Whenever I feel hurt, mad, or tired, I've to brush those feelings aside and get myself together... I've been avoiding all these feelings as much as I could, but here comes the day where I feel like I don't have any vacant spaces left in me to bottle these emotions up anymore.

I love my life, I feel contented. I don't feel suicidal. Not this time at least... I'm just really worn out. 

School has been giving me a really hard time, I know I'm not the only one facing this problem, but just saying, in case any of you (god knows if anyone still bothers reading this) wanted an explanation for the lack of updates.

Besides school, I wouldn't say that everything's running smoothly, cos it isn't.

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How many times should one forgive before they know it's enough? How long should one put up with another before they know it's time to give up and let go? How do you know if someone's worth it, cos isn't loving someone all about giving and not expecting anything in return?

It's such an effortless thing to do, whenever we console the people around us and tell them it's time they should move on and put the past behind. Yet it's funny how it's one of the toughest things to deliver, despite it being an overused piece of advice.

Why do people say, "If you love something, let it go." If you've really loved someone, you should know that you'll never wanna let them go no matter how hard times are. You'd fight to hold on, because you know it's gonna hurt you more than trying to stay on. Even if it's foolish.

Am I wrong to say this? I don't know.

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These troubles won't stop piling, but at least you've a choice to embrace them or dwell on them... Have I been living up to my won words, or have I just been living in denial?

Lies

Is it so hard to be honest? 

I'm not saying all guys are the same, but after all the encounters my girl friends and I have faced, sometimes it comes across to me that majority are. They'd rather lie than to be honest, because they either fear the repercussions of telling the truth, or think that they can get away with it. Hell no, she's gonna find out some how, some day. Trust me.

So what if you have it all covered now? Have you thought of how it's gonna be when she finds out the truth herself?

Telling a lie is like forming a snowball. The longer you take to find the guts to be truthful, you tend to cover one up with another, and by the time you realise it, it's too late.

Of course not only do guys lie. Everyone lies at some point of their lives, it's inevitable. However, there's a difference between lying to keep someone safe, and lying to protect yourself but to hurt someone else instead.

Small lies are still lies, it may mean nothing to you, but it may mean the world to another. 

If someone can allow themselves to lie to you once, they'll think it's fine to do it twice.

Double lies are the worst. You know when you already know every bit of the truth, but just wish to give this person an opportunity to redeem themselves, and they choose to lie to you again?

Forgiving is usually easy, it's the process of trying to forget that's a pain in the ass.

Imagine trusting someone with all your heart, and having the faith in them that they'll always stay true to you... It literally breaks your heart to find out that's only what you think. 

How are you to believe in them again? Giving someone a second chance is like putting yourself in jeopardy, and risking getting your heart broken again. 

What's the point of asking if I'm okay, what's the point of saying you're sorry? Are you apologising for what you've done, or are you just sorry that you're busted?

How am I supposed to do it? 

Human beings are cruely selfish, aren't we?

Cocotte

If you were wondering why I haven't really blogged about places I've been to etc... It's because I haven't really been hanging out or doing anything special over the past couple of weeks. The two most common places I've visited were either school or home. Sounds boring? I know.

Life has been rather monotonous for me... School's taking up so much of my time, that the last time I met my best friend was close to a month back. :(

On a brighter note, I'm really glad I've been spending a lot more time with my family this year.

Celebrated my cousin's 17th birthday last Saturday at Cocotte.

"Located on the ground level of Wanderlust, Cocotte serves up unpretentious, rustic French cuisine in a casual and comfortable setting. Getting to the heart of French country cooking, shared platters of piping hot food and scrumptious dishes passed across the table between friends and family is what we are about." Love the way they described themselves. It was indeed a perfect ground for a heartwarming meal with your close ones or kin.

Not only was the place extremely cosy, the aroma that lingers around leaves your famished tummies growling.

Starters, main courses, pastries, desserts, wine - A whole load of variety to satisfy your tastebuds. 

Have never been a huge fan of French cuisine, but Cocotte is definitely one of those places I'd recommend if you're bored of ordinary cafes that only serve Western dishes. Great place to just chill and hang out as well.

ADDRESS: No. 2 Dickson Road Singapore 209494

RESERVATIONS: click HERE for online reservation +65 6298 1188
info@restaurantcocotte.com

OPENING HOURS: Lunch: Sunday to Thursday 1200hrs – 1430hrs (Last order 1400hrs)
Friday and Saturday 1200hrs – 1500hrs (Last order 1430hrs)
*Closed on Tuesday Dinner: Sunday to Thursday 1800hrs – 2200hrs (Last order 2130hrs)
Friday and Saturday 1800hrs – 2230hrs (Last order 2200hrs) *Closed on Tuesday

EVENT ENQUIRIES:  Throwing parties? From corporate to intimate, we tailor to your needs. Call +65 6298 1188 or contact info@restaurantcocotte.com

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Apologies for not updating this space as regular as before, but I promise I will as soon as my exams come to an end by the end of April! Kissxs.