Gangsterism.


"People throw rocks at things that shine."

Well yea, today I'm just going to type down all my personal opinions towards our generation these days. I know I'm gonna get hell loads of hate comments, because I'm a teen myself. But I honestly can't be bothered.

Disclaimer: First things first, I've to emphasize that some of the things that I mention in the later part of this entry may contradict how I was in the past. I'm not trying to say how perfect I am now nor would I claim to have any qualifications to judge anyone out there. 

It's just my generic perspective on a whole, including myself. Please do not take it personally and bear any grudges against me!

Gangsterism

I have no idea why on earth are there people who still has an interest to be part of gangsterism. Seriously pardon me for my shallowness... I've nothing against it, but I just can't figure out what's so cool about it?

I remember there was a point of time when I thought that being an "ah lian" or socializing with gangsters were like the coolest shit on planet earth, probably back when I was the age of 11-13. Which I think some of you would have encountered in your younger days as well.

Reminiscing back, I used to go like "Wa sweet sia, that guy's willing to fight with someone for me. Wa like so man leh!!! Sibei macho eh." And now..... Looking at juniors this way, *Roll eyes* Hahaha, I'm sorry if I'm a little judgmental here, it just amuses me.


"Kwa smlj?!" Are you trying to say that you're dick, dude? U mad? Or girls who goes like "Knnbccb" in every single sentence they breathe. You've a cunt/vagina yourself babe, is there anything to be proud of? At the end of the day, it just reflects your upbringing.

And just in case if you're wondering, even though I've mixed with a lot of them, I've never touched any cigarrettes, drugs, or committed any other crime before.

Not trying to offend any gangsters out there, but I find it really immature that if you're already 16/above and you still feel that stirring up unnecessary "tai ji" (Problems) is cool, there must be something wrong with you.

One thing that I detest most is watching how some reckless young punks going like "Not happy ah? One on one la!" Seriously? So getting yourself into stupid fights out of plain nothing and having injuries are really thaaaat fun? 

If you guys actually remembered the slashing case that took place back in 2010. Apparently, many ah bengs usually takes "staring" as a threat which is usually what triggers a fight.


It's really devastating to see how some guys' ego can kill so badly. I believe guys take their pride really importantly and a lot of them are really impulsive, causing them to act before they even spare a split second to think.

I've to admit the reason why I'm aware of all these is because I do mix with a lot of guys like that. & I guess that's the reason why many people have this mindset that I must be an ah lian as well; As the saying goes, you're what your company is.

I beg to differ. I really do have my own morals at the end of the day. I won't deny some of them are really fun to mix with and are really loyal to their friends. That's one thing which I admire most. But I'll never be a genuine member of these cliques. Ironic, but I'm true about this.

Oh wait before I continue, I have to stress that gangsters are NOT the same as ah bengs and ah lians. 

Anyway, many teens are getting more and more into all these stuff due to influences coming from the older generations. Yea, to be fair, I know that many kids are facing problems at home... Which causes them to be "deprive of love, a sense of belonging and security." 

In addition to that, mixing with the wrong peers and not being able to differentiate between what's wrong and what's right will easily cause these kids to be led astray.

So yea, I do understand where some of them are coming from. And I have to say that's the reason why I've never discriminated any of them with reasons like this. 

On the contrary, I dislike it when many of them choose to give up on themselves, especially if they have parents who sweated blood just to fork out the money for their education. Yet instead, they decide to go on the wrong path, and forgo their education and life.


My dad has always been telling me that education and appearance isn't everything, what matters most is your personality. But it is still essential to survive in this society. 

Without these two factors, it's really hard to make it through and in fact, no one will really appreciate your existence. This is indeed how cruel reality is.

As for girls, I guess no matter how homicidal they are, how much they wanna kill someone; Be it a jerk that broke their heart or a bitch whom they are unhappy with... 

They barely resort to violence. They are just verbally nasty. Otherwise, they'd just seek help from their boyfriends. lol.


However, whatever it is, I still feel that it's not necessary to pick up gangsterism just to feel "loved" and "secured." But of course, it's still much better than those with stupid thinkings like, it's cool and it's something to be proud of.

Or worst would be guys who thinks that it will give them a better opportunity to get girls. I'm aware many girls go for all the wrong guys these days... 

Nevertheless, at the end of the day... In the long run... Trust me, girls will still end up chasing a guy who will be able to support her physically... Not just mentally giving her a sense of security.

I'm not being materialistic here, just being practical, this is life. If you've a bad attitude, bad grades, no talent and no goal... You'll just eventually end up nowhere.

NO ONE WILL WANT YOU.


Plus, I always feel that talking things out is definitely so much better than having to bring out your fist. I know how cocky some ignorant morons can get, and sometimes it's really tough to hold back the urge of hitting someone... But c'mon, why get yourself into a pile of trouble?

Do you really wanna end up being locked up behind the bars, spending your days in a cell? After all, it's your life, your call. You decide where you wish to end up at.


Certainly, not all gangsters are bad, unsensible and doesn't have a future cos I do have friends who plays a part and I know there are nice ones out there... But is there really a point to it? Think of it, do you really wanna be looked from head to toe every time you step out into the streets?

And what if you've kids in future, do you want them to follow your footsteps? Do you want them questioning on your history, and all you could say is "Oh, I was a gangster back in my youth."

No one's gonna look down on you unless you decide to give up on yourself.

Last but not least, Don't wish to belabor to much on this, but please note that I'm really not trying to criticize anyone here, I'm just talking about some people who think it's cool when it's really NOT.

Sorry if I didn't mention much on the girls' side. Not that I've any prejudice against guys, but I guess guys are more prone to these sort of actions.


PICTURES SPAMMMMM.

Town with my gf last Friday!

Cam whores in the toilet, 4eva.





Have I mentioned I got my new board?! Here it is, it's a penny.
Starting to regret not getting my longboard, cos I prefer cruising in it T_T Supa upset.

And here it is! My new bed room! :)



Shout out for Ashincans.livejournal.com on the sequin top!!!
AHHH, my gf got me the fetish for glittered and sequin stuff lately! hehehe.

Anyway, will do a proper review soon on ashincans!






A day out with only mascara on. Hahahahaha. 





Photoshoot for EGP with my new friend Grace! Uploading images soon! :)


Went to AMK to meet love after the shoot and an appointment with Freda.





So yesterday, I attended an event before I headed down to find my two love ones in town. Will blog more about the event in my next entry!


Mad in love with the bra top from Top shop!!!! 


Photobooth!

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An Entry To My Haters


I'm not born to please YOU.

I swear upon my grave, nothing sucks more than being maligned for something you've never done nor had the slightest intention to do it. Nothing sucks more than being hated by a whole bunch of people that you've never even came across your entire life, for no apparent reason. Nothing's worst than crying yourself to bed every night because you just can't believe how insane and cruel this society has became. 

Time and again, I've got people telling me how fortunate I am, how envious they are and how they wish they had my life. Seriously?! You must be mad. 

On the surface to certain people, I seem like a bubbly, happy-go-lucky kinda girl that leads an awesome life. But behind all these smiles and laughter, placing aside the things you see... Maybe, you probably should think harder. I bet it'll be your greatest mistake which you'll gradually regret your whole life if you were in my position. 



How many times must I explain myself before people can stop judging me? I had enough of listening or seeing morons fabricating a whole pack of lies just to bring me down. The most ridiculous things can come from someone whom I've never even breathed a word to before. Fine, say all you want, for all I care. But dude, you sure you know me that well?

Like duh, everyone gets haters... And like I've mentioned in my previous post, everyone judges. But why hate on someone you know nothing about? I don't mind being hated, but have you questioned the reliability of the remarks you've made on me? Have you ever tried getting to know me before you start assuming?

She's not trying to seek for attention, you just don't understand her pain.

So in that case, how about I accuse your parents for bringing you up poorly due to how you bitch about me? Does that do justice to your parents? If it doesn't, why do something you dislike to others? You think by saying things in such offensive ways, and just going like "JUST SAYING." or "NO OFFENSE" will really help? Then can I just add any of it to every insult I say in your face? How does that feel?


I have no idea how my actions and words online may have portrayed myself to be on the superficial side. Besides, everybody you do not know in reality is superficial, no? Am I not right to say so? Which dude that you've actually met online and you can say that they aren't superficial? Please correct me if I'm wrong. How well can you get to know about someone's personality just based on their tweets, blogs or facebook?

If that's the case, I think it's only fair if everyone gets badly criticized equally right?


You don't see the flaws I'm forced to face with in front of my bathroom mirror everyday. People call me fake, they think I'm being hypocritical when I reject to compliments. They go like "If you don't think you're pretty, why post pictures of yourself?" Sometimes, I feel so raged. I wanna retaliate. But then again, I had second thoughts, will they even bother to listen?

It's funny how people hates to be ridiculously judged or accused, and yet they do the same to others.

1) Posting pictures yourself; if you think you look good in those pictures or you just like it, why not? Everyone definitely has at least that one particular shot that they look good in or which they really adore... Does that mean they think they are good looking? Totally absurd.

2) Issues of me copying quotes from Tumblr. I get most agitated whenever I receive comments on this. I've been quoting since the age of 13. Readers who knew me since then would've known. Time and again, I even tell people that my quotes are sometimes inspired by other quote accounts. But 3/4 of the time, I wrote them based on my own story or my friend's.

You mean people from Tumblr are human, and I'm not? We can't face the same phase in life when we're all teens? & What makes you think that quotes from Tumblr are even original in the first place?

3) How can people get away with it when they put on a full face of make up. And me, just simple make up... and I get this shit? I even posted pictures of myself without make up before, then thereafter people will start saying I photoshopped my pictures. I don't even have a photoshop application on my comp. lol?

On the contrary, when you're being confident... People start to think you're overrated, arrogant and sh*t. SERIOUSLY?! What exactly do you want bruh?







Honestly, I'm really insecure about my appearance. Friends who are close enough to me knows it best. I've never in my entire life felt that I was good enough. Sometimes I can't even help but to agree with my haters when they think I'm overrated.

I don't know, it's annoying being insecure, sensitive and emotional. I dislike it too. But can I help it? It's just in me. Why can't people understand? It's like, stabbing you in the tummy and asking you not to feel hurt. How everyone criticizes your every move and then blame you for getting affected.

Yea, I've friends... But how many can I actually confide to when I'm down, how many really cares instead of being just curious and how many will not judge?

Over the past few weeks, I've been feeling so god damn desolated and hell demoralized from all the hate comments I receive online. You can tell me to ignore, tell me it will be fine, tell me all the advices in the world to deal with it... But I don't need it.

I know well enough how to deal with all these myself. Yet as the saying goes, it's easier to be said than done. It's not easy at all. I've never hated my haters, it's just really disheartening to realize how people will never appreciate my existence. I'm trying, can't you see?

Trust me, you don't know how it feels until you go through the pain yourself.

Sometimes I just wanna tell myself....

However, with this perpetual and never ending sh*t I've to face in this society everyday... I doubt it's easy. We all have our insecurities, we all have our problems, we all hate being judged... Yet I don't understand why is it so hard for some people to comprehend how it feels.

Anyway, if you wanna accuse me for exposing myself to the internet, I deserve it and brought all these upon myself; posting pictures of myself and all. Then don't you think you should blame yourself, for exposing yourself, to me?! If you really dislike me that much, then why do you even bother about me so much? So long.

Every single soul out there that's reading this... I hope you understand I'm not trying to gain sympathy or attention. I mean, it's just how I really feel deep down inside. I don't need you to like me or have a complete change in your perspective towards me by the end of this post, but just feel me.