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An Entry To My Haters

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I'm not born to please YOU.

I swear upon my grave, nothing sucks more than being maligned for something you've never done nor had the slightest intention to do it. Nothing sucks more than being hated by a whole bunch of people that you've never even came across your entire life, for no apparent reason. Nothing's worst than crying yourself to bed every night because you just can't believe how insane and cruel this society has became. 

Time and again, I've got people telling me how fortunate I am, how envious they are and how they wish they had my life. Seriously?! You must be mad. 

On the surface to certain people, I seem like a bubbly, happy-go-lucky kinda girl that leads an awesome life. But behind all these smiles and laughter, placing aside the things you see... Maybe, you probably should think harder. I bet it'll be your greatest mistake which you'll gradually regret your whole life if you were in my position. 



How many times must I explain myself before people can stop judging me? I had enough of listening or seeing morons fabricating a whole pack of lies just to bring me down. The most ridiculous things can come from someone whom I've never even breathed a word to before. Fine, say all you want, for all I care. But dude, you sure you know me that well?

Like duh, everyone gets haters... And like I've mentioned in my previous post, everyone judges. But why hate on someone you know nothing about? I don't mind being hated, but have you questioned the reliability of the remarks you've made on me? Have you ever tried getting to know me before you start assuming?

She's not trying to seek for attention, you just don't understand her pain.

So in that case, how about I accuse your parents for bringing you up poorly due to how you bitch about me? Does that do justice to your parents? If it doesn't, why do something you dislike to others? You think by saying things in such offensive ways, and just going like "JUST SAYING." or "NO OFFENSE" will really help? Then can I just add any of it to every insult I say in your face? How does that feel?


I have no idea how my actions and words online may have portrayed myself to be on the superficial side. Besides, everybody you do not know in reality is superficial, no? Am I not right to say so? Which dude that you've actually met online and you can say that they aren't superficial? Please correct me if I'm wrong. How well can you get to know about someone's personality just based on their tweets, blogs or facebook?

If that's the case, I think it's only fair if everyone gets badly criticized equally right?


You don't see the flaws I'm forced to face with in front of my bathroom mirror everyday. People call me fake, they think I'm being hypocritical when I reject to compliments. They go like "If you don't think you're pretty, why post pictures of yourself?" Sometimes, I feel so raged. I wanna retaliate. But then again, I had second thoughts, will they even bother to listen?

It's funny how people hates to be ridiculously judged or accused, and yet they do the same to others.

1) Posting pictures yourself; if you think you look good in those pictures or you just like it, why not? Everyone definitely has at least that one particular shot that they look good in or which they really adore... Does that mean they think they are good looking? Totally absurd.

2) Issues of me copying quotes from Tumblr. I get most agitated whenever I receive comments on this. I've been quoting since the age of 13. Readers who knew me since then would've known. Time and again, I even tell people that my quotes are sometimes inspired by other quote accounts. But 3/4 of the time, I wrote them based on my own story or my friend's.

You mean people from Tumblr are human, and I'm not? We can't face the same phase in life when we're all teens? & What makes you think that quotes from Tumblr are even original in the first place?

3) How can people get away with it when they put on a full face of make up. And me, just simple make up... and I get this shit? I even posted pictures of myself without make up before, then thereafter people will start saying I photoshopped my pictures. I don't even have a photoshop application on my comp. lol?

On the contrary, when you're being confident... People start to think you're overrated, arrogant and sh*t. SERIOUSLY?! What exactly do you want bruh?







Honestly, I'm really insecure about my appearance. Friends who are close enough to me knows it best. I've never in my entire life felt that I was good enough. Sometimes I can't even help but to agree with my haters when they think I'm overrated.

I don't know, it's annoying being insecure, sensitive and emotional. I dislike it too. But can I help it? It's just in me. Why can't people understand? It's like, stabbing you in the tummy and asking you not to feel hurt. How everyone criticizes your every move and then blame you for getting affected.

Yea, I've friends... But how many can I actually confide to when I'm down, how many really cares instead of being just curious and how many will not judge?

Over the past few weeks, I've been feeling so god damn desolated and hell demoralized from all the hate comments I receive online. You can tell me to ignore, tell me it will be fine, tell me all the advices in the world to deal with it... But I don't need it.

I know well enough how to deal with all these myself. Yet as the saying goes, it's easier to be said than done. It's not easy at all. I've never hated my haters, it's just really disheartening to realize how people will never appreciate my existence. I'm trying, can't you see?

Trust me, you don't know how it feels until you go through the pain yourself.

Sometimes I just wanna tell myself....

However, with this perpetual and never ending sh*t I've to face in this society everyday... I doubt it's easy. We all have our insecurities, we all have our problems, we all hate being judged... Yet I don't understand why is it so hard for some people to comprehend how it feels.

Anyway, if you wanna accuse me for exposing myself to the internet, I deserve it and brought all these upon myself; posting pictures of myself and all. Then don't you think you should blame yourself, for exposing yourself, to me?! If you really dislike me that much, then why do you even bother about me so much? So long.

Every single soul out there that's reading this... I hope you understand I'm not trying to gain sympathy or attention. I mean, it's just how I really feel deep down inside. I don't need you to like me or have a complete change in your perspective towards me by the end of this post, but just feel me.
































































Bitchy side.

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"If you judge a book by its cover, you might miss out an amazing story."

Damn. I've been so unmotivated to fill up this rusty place over the past few days. Constantly updating my personal blog instead. Oops. Didn't mean to, it's just that those stuff can't be written here... Otherwise I'd be badly judged... AGAIN.

So let me start on a common topic today... JUDGMENTS.


Apparently, whatever you do, you get judged. Whether you're pretty, ugly, fat, thin, tall, short, stupid, smart... YOU STILL FUCKING GET JUDGED. Isn't that hell annoying? Sometimes I'm so desperately urged to give the middle finger in some people's face. C'mon.... It's like, If I tell you I'm gonna shit now, are you gonna judge me too bruh?!" 

WHUAAAT DAAAA........?!

Fine you wanna judge? Go with the rules. To be applicable to judge...
1) You must be fucking perfect.
2) You HAVE TO know that person's story and should've faced what they've been through before.

DON'T QUALIFY FOR ANY OF THE ABOVE STATED? Then shut the hell up. Look at yourself, are you really that perfect? That flawless? Fact is, no one is. And I'm certainly aware of how hard it is to resist the temptation to judge some bitches, whores, retards, faggots out there in this society. But have a LIMIT to it. 

Go easy on her, stop judging her, she's already trying her best. It's not easy to fake a smile when it hurts so bad.

Yea, we all complain about how judgmental this society is but we don't realize, we ourselves, judge too. There's no wrong in judging, that's what humans do. Unless you're inhuman. It's just that you've to know where's the line, and don't cross it. Or at least keep it to yourself! The problem with people is, when they are unhappy about certain other's doings... They tweet, facebook and whatsoever shit about that person OPENLY. 

HOW DOES IT FEEL IF YOU'RE THE ONE GETTING ALL THOSE CRAP?! Especially if it's a personal grudge, like how maybe you're jealous or that person offended you in someway... So you end up saying the nastiest things about that person, bitching the hell out of your timeline. Dude, the internet doesn't only belong to you. EVERYONE SEES IT. But duh ostensibly, a handful of people just loves to publicize it deliberately for some stupid reason.

What I hate the most is, how morons judge you based on what they HEAR from people who HATES you. Pardon me if I'm rude, but are you born with a coconut brain? -_- How can you even trust their statements? You mean haters will speak good stuff about you? "Woah, I hate that bitch and she's drop dead gorgeous!!!" UMAD? I'm completely dubious about your intelligence darling.

Sometimes it's really not easy at all to keep your head held high when everybody's trying to bring you down.

I'll hand you a cent, grab a life! Stop sitting in front of your computer 24/7, 365 waiting to spot every single mistake someone does, just to bring them down. Even if you hate that person to the extreme core, across the horizon, pass the seven seas... You still appear to be hell psychotic. Then my best advice for you... Get your brain checked.

There's always more than meets the eye. Before you speak, listen. Before you assume, ask. Before you even do anything, think!.

You know sometimes, I pretend to be fine with all the nasty comments, but in reality everyone knows how bad it hurts to be insulted time and again. The pain may only last for a minute or two, but every second does counts. Receiving a bucket full of hate comments everyday is the reason why I've such low self esteem, and people are still questioning me why I'm always feeling inferior and all. Then again, they'll start to talk about how fake I am. What exactly do some people want? I am absolutely clueless.

I can't even do what I'm happy with, fear holds me back each and every single time. Ignore? C'mon, it's easier to be said than done.

You can say words won't kill. But hey dude, that's because it isn't you!

People nowadays are FORCED to be fake. Why? Majority won't appreciate us for we truly are. Let's not even bring up the issue on girls putting on make up... We're not born with an option to look great, so stop firing us with all your abusive remarks and by all means swallow it down and shit it out. K the end!

Pictures taken from Wenesday to Sunday! Can't be bothered to add on more words to this entry! Will blog again after cny vistings. ;)

Ps: Yea, it's Xiaxue!!! Hehehe. Luv her hair.

Steamboat with the usuals! ;) 










Got this little thingy on saturday, isn't it cute?! It has the ability to flash lights!




Old school Ice cream. HAHA.









Say hi to my truck loads of bunnies!!! Love bunnies.


Hahahaha, this time... Total bareness. No lenses. SEE what I mean now.....