2012 Doomed.

HAPPIE 2N0E1W2 YEARR!!! 

Another stupid entry... I mean you guys said I should just update regularly regardless of what I've to say right.... So serves you right for reading all the random shit I've to talk about. 

DANG. Have yet gotten the batteries for my external camera's flash... And all the recent pictures are pathetically taken under my kuku table lamp. Embarrassing much.... I totally need a ring light!!!! Who wants to buy it for me?! Ok I'm just kidding. But seriously I effin want it, but don't wish to fork out the ke$ching for it. This is the fucked up side of me.

So anyway I spent my Friday with girlfy at Tampines first, we went to chill and walk around in T1. Honestly I think Tampines is one of the stupidest place which I can only survive there for at most an hour. If I exceed it, I'm probably too broke to go anywhere else or too bored and lazy to travel further. But but but, I like to chill there. Contradicting I know.

The second half of the day was completed with Fiddddyyyy. Meh.

 Caught Darkest hour. And I totally think that you shouldn't be deceived by the movie's poster like how the both of us did... I mean admit it it looks like some dope shit movie. The both of us almost fell asleep in the theatre. God dammit. OK LAH, I'm exaggerating a little. It's not thaaaaaat bad, rate it 2.8/5 I guess.

I bet first you'll be thinking where the heck is this, next is since when did Singapore had sucha chio place...... It's PASIR RIS PARK. lol. Isn't it like freakin gorgeous?! 

So yea, we went to the park to chill. Had fun! Anyway have you guys ever heard of the rumours about the "maze" in the park? Louis told me that the place is haunted. What scares the shit out of me is that the place is totally pitched dark in the night, NO LIGHTS in that entire area at all. Having the chills now?! Cos I am. I'm like thinking of it now and my goosebumps are literally forming already.

BUT after my grandmother story... Conclusion is... We didn't go in. Because that ass chickened out. *Pushes blame.* Hahaha! Dying to try it some time. 

Pweeedyyy boiiiiiboi. ♥

Failed quality pix taken by that boy. Hahahaha!

As for Yesterday, I spent three quarter of my day at home and headed out for countdown at Marina in the night! AWESOME time. (Not really actually) My whole day was pretty screwed up by loads of problems, but I must say I really did enjoy my time at the countdown. My companies were great I guess. *winks*

So how about you guys?! Had the time of your lives?! 

Despite all the crap, I did! Luvin every bit of it. He he he.

Sorry for the effin bad quality pixs... Like I've mentioned earlier on, my flash died on me...

About one to two more days till school starts. Sucha dread. The thought of it is killing every single atom in me. I swear I'm really not looking forward to all the preparation for O's... Although I can't wait for it to end, and get out of my damn school.

Shall end this entry off with 10 new year resolutions (random order):

1) Score well and get into poly (Cannot be distracted by love and shit like the past two years again.)

2) Gain more readers... (I hope people won't get sick of reading my stuff, I'm afraid ok!!!)

3) Spend my time in 2012 wisely. (I don't wanna regret in future.)

4) Have a memorable sweet 16th Birthday. (?Open party?)

5) Have more friends! (To be precise, less haters actually.)

6) Dad and mom to stay healthy. (Dote me more. Muahaha)

7) Find a stable bf. (???????Maybe???????)

8) Have less problems... (There's never an end to my problems.)

9) 2012 not to be end of the world!!! (I don't wanna waste my time studying.)

10) Erm.... Stay happy. (I ran out of things to say...)

& Just in case I can't blog before returning back to school, study hard guys! x

Sticks N Stones.

Just another jerk, just another lie, just another guy I thought I could trust, just another time I thought forever could last.

Have you ever felt like you're really on the verge on crying, you feel so empty in the stomach, a little chill surrounds you with the goosebumps, you bite onto your lips, you try not to speak because you know another word will cause those tears to start forming within the white corners of your eyes... 

And you're like, "Please, not now. Don't cry now. Keep the smile. Don't think about it. Some people are not worth it." But you just couldn't help it but to let those tears glide down the cheeks of your face. It hurts. You need a hug. I feel you.

I don't understand how can some people claim that they "love" you for a day, and then ignore you for hours the following day. How is it possible?! I mean I'm not sure if it is, but to me... Ignoring is sucha torture, I can't even stay mad at someone I LOVE for more than half an hour. And some people can possibly just disappear for hours and hours and hours..... 

Hanging there in agony. Especially when it comes to bedtime, the pain starts to grow from within, like a million times deeper. All the questions starts to pop up and you have no idea how to give an explanation to any. There's nothing you can do except drowning yourself in the saddest songs that relates to your situation, then allow those negative thoughts to invade your brain.... *BAM* You start crying again. You don't wanna think about it, you tried avoiding it the entire day, but it just won't leave your mind at ease, it just creeps in naturally. And the worst thing is falling asleep half way while crying, then waking up the next morning having to go thru the same phase again. 

Losing you wasn't part of my plan, my perfect story was suppose to have a happy ending.

Seriously, that's how painful being ignored is. It's not that bad knowing that someone is busy, sleeping or maybe just didn't had the time to give their phone a check. At least that's just frustrating, not in fact hurting. But if you know that they actually used their phone, like you catch them tweeting or updating their facebook statuses, whatsoever... You know you're no longer that strong enough to say "Never mind, I'm okay." 

Is ___ texting someone else? Is ___ mad with me? Is ___ having a really fun conversation with his/her new company? Is ___ gonna ignore me for good? Am I gonna be forgotten soon? Am I being replaced? You just uncontrollably fill your mind with every pessimistic thought you could think of, booom boooooom boooooomz, perpetually into your mind like a machine gun. 

Why do you have to do this to me? I find myself really foolish but I just can't help it, I can't help it not to think about you, think about what's wrong, think about why the heck you're not speaking to me, why the fuck we're like strangers all of a sudden. What are words if you really don't mean them? "Love" without actions is just complete bullshit. Don't tell someone how much you love them, don't promise them you will never leave them, don't swear and cross your heart you will never hurt them... If you know you will eventually.

They say actions speaks louder than words, but sometimes just words alone kills us all. Thanks for faking it all, thanks for pretending all these shit, thanks for making me believe all your so called promises that turned out to be lies, thanks for bringing me where I am now, realizing that it's really tough to trust someone again, thanks for all the hurt, and thanks for fucking up my life.

If you don't want me now, I won't want you later. 

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Sorry for the supa long rant/nonsense. So this is me when I'm feeling supa emotional. Haven't been posting such stuff for quite some time. But whatever. The post above is sorta like a combination of all my tweets. Yea, sometimes I'm not just quoting. I'm really feeling it or I really felt it. Don't worry, I'm fine after pouring it all out on this space.

No pictures spam today! Didn't take any pictures... Went to Ikea to get some new furnitures for my two rooms, gonna do a makeover to it! Hehe. will take pictures of them once I'm done! Till then. I love you all. x

Winter Wonderland.

A real boyfriend will take the extra effort to understand his girlfriend and will be able to tell how she's feeling without her saying.

Before I start, this post was supposedly scheduled on the 23rd of december; Hence the video above! Oops. Anyways, do click on my Nuffnang guys! Thank you.

So I've been soooooo soooooo soooooo packed over the past few days, literally marathoning outings everyday that I barely had the time to even stop and catch my breath. Ok, nah jk. But well, that was why I kept delaying my blog entry! 

Finally have some time now before I head to my relative's house later for a X'mas gathering. 

Last Monday, went out with Fiddddddyyyyy to town (Town's like my second home now... WTF) and it was sorta like a no-plan-date, so we ended up lingering around aimlessly. Went back to my fav place which I last went... around a year and a half ago. I swear they have like freakin awesome stuff there which I can probably keep myself entertained for really long without getting bored. Gonna keep this place as a secret, for you to find out yourselves! He he he.

Caught Alvin and the chipmunks 3! God damn adorable! I love Theodore and Eleanore! (The green ones) *Faints. I know it's some kinda kid show, but we're still young at heart right... HA HA.

So this moron was trying to create a "scene" in this pretty little house. And he set up two wooden dolls on the bed... You know I know. Psychotic much. LOL. 

See this guy, 18 and still acting like a kid. 

Ain't this metal boxes cute?!?!?!?!?! 

Find someone that's able to handle your mood swings, messy hair, bare face, ugly outfit, who brings you to visit his parents not his bed.

As for Wednesday, caught up with my two beautiful babies! As always, they never fail to train my 6 packs, forever cracking silly jokes. Went to vivo for some shopping (Actually, window shopping) I picked up so many stuff from F21 and Topshop but placed them back in the end... I feel damn thrifty these few days. I shall shop after I get my pay from my adverts and allowance.....

Had so much fun in the pet's store at the top level. I swear the dogs there are supa cutesy!!!! Reminds me of my tragic story that I'm afraid of animals... And I can never own a pet on my own. Anyone's willing to get rid of my fear?! I want a freakin bunny.

Muahaha and this is my fav breed!!! Idk what the hell is it called. I've 0.1% knowledge towards dogs. Feel like an idiot whenever people are like bombarding my brain with all the different kinds of names... And I'm just like, ????????????? WHAAAAAAT THE FUAAAAACK?! But still, that doesn't erase my love towards these pretty darlings!

Finally settled down at Ben N Jerry's to have a nice bowl of yummy ice cream. Thinking of it now makes me wanna chew on something sweet. I've got a sweet tooth - Random fact about me.

Anyway the following few pictures are taken with Rachell's camera, and they are unedited. 

Enough of saying I photoshopped my pictures you morons... The next time you say that, I will make sure I photoshop your brain. (Fyi, my definition of photoshopping is... Making changes to your features and all)

Cheapo me trying out the cosmetics........... Anyway I just got my lipstick from Topshop in Nude colour! Love how creamy the texture is, but it's not really long lasting!!!

Whoop whoop! Long john for dinner! See the happy face? I'm famished!!

Side note: Yea yea, I'm gonna entertain my haters once again... Because I really can't withstand being badly accused. I mean like, c'mon... You can't expect everyone to look 101% identical in real life compared to the way they are on pictures. When we camwhore in pictures, we can take our shots based on the angle we want you to look at us from, we can choose to look good. Whereas in real life... Who knows your face might end up looking like this....

LOL. You see, even the hottest Katy and cutest Justin have their unglam moments... Obviously when I post up pictures, I choose pictures that are nice right?! Who the heck will post pictures of themselves if they think it's so f*cking ugly... Unless you're those bo chup kind, then I've no comments.

K, enough. If you're still not convinced, then I've nothing to say. Maybe to some people, I have some troll face in real life. FML.

Yea I'm a girl myself and I think girls are damn troublesome, hard to understand, too dramatic and indecisive sometimes.

I have no idea how the hell my hair ended up this way... Well who cares, I'm still gonna camwhore! Fuck yeah, my attitude. *winks

LOL, I was on the phone while taking this picture. *Moment of silence* And gf was like "HELLO?! OI. HELLO?! YOU TAKING PICTURE IS IT?!" HAHAHA.

Some gifts I received from Etude house!!!! 

Have totally no idea what I'm gonna do with the bb cream though, I don't even use it :(

 But nonetheless, my love for the limited edition hair/body spray is way beyond words! The fragrance is supa nice! Moreover, you can use it on your hair/body~

Shopping with mommy on thursday!!!! Didn't buy much stuff, but I love what I bought! TEEHEE. It's awesome how my mom always complain how much I've been spending, but she's still willing to fork out the money just for her vainpot daughter.

I think my hand likes to be in the picture with me.... 

Met Louis on Friday to chill at Tampines! And we went to this shop located opposite Hush Puppies, which are selling Hair curlers and straighteners! I swear they are really good. C'mon, look at my hair and judge for yourself. Plus it adds on a healthy glow to your hair making it look extremely nourished. $180 for the pink Zebra printed ones and $150 for the plain ones! Only takes up to 3 secs to get it done for each strand! COOL OR WHAT?!

So she was really nice to help me do my entire hair. Must have tire the hell out of her because my hair's freakin thick....

Headed down to Vaunt's Beach party at Azzura in the night! Met up with some really cool people... And thanks to them for taking care of me the whole night because I was god damn drunk. Was feeling really stressed up on certain stuff. Had a great time though!!! Sadly, I didn't take any pictures when I was there!!! 

Next two outfits are what mommy bought for me when we went out for shopping!

Spent Christmas eve with my family! Hehehe. Cos I was really worned out after the previous night. 

Two pictures of some of the "cool people" I've just mentioned of!

Wayne qt was dared to take a picture with the Indian guy.... HAHAHAHA and pretty Bel joined in!

Muahahahaha three hot guys!

Ending this post off with my ultimate act cute face! HAHAHAHA. Merry Christmas everyone! Hope you guys enjoyed your time! 

Stay tuned for my next entry! PS: I love all of you!